I’m not okay with office politics. Shouldn’t engineering be fun as hell and free from all the political corruptions? If it’s like this, might as well work in government office.
I honestly just want to enjoy working by solving the mysteries one by one. Not to have my process flow being interrupted because of some silly feud between two parties.
I don’t know your story. I assume that your heart’s been bruised that’s why you are acting this way. I know you are not this mean. I know that your heart is full of kindness. I know that these things can be solved nicely if and only if everybody just sit down and talk it out. Not flush it out through the wrong channel.
I know that none of them is going to read this and realize the error in their ways. So I’m going to sit here quietly and pray that God will knock some sense into all of them.
one hundred gigabytes of :
- hard work
- work hard
- long nights
somebody advised me…
“whenever you are stressed out about your current job, go update your resume”
as if knowing I am in need to get away from the current situation, my director told me that she will pull me out of my current role as quality engineer and send me to product engineering department for 3 months to really study about our products and becomes the technical master in the team - on her birthday. she is officially awesome :)
a couple days before that, I mentioned to my family that I am sick of this job and I might consider an early retirement as an engineer and start a new career as a kindergarten teacher. I love being an engineer and I love being in quality department but seeing how incompetent I am now, it gets tough and I just want an easy way out. really my job is not going anywhere. I am technically incompetent. what is there to stay for when I can’t even properly narrate how our product works. such a failure as an engineer I guess. day by day I have to follow up on more operational items and it is really getting on my nerves. on shift, I did more technical works but with nobody to really guide me I am not so sure whether I’m doing the right thing or just simply wasting my time and company resources. so when madam director told me that she will park me under a senior product engineer for 3 months and drop all of those hanky panky operational stuff, I couldn’t be any happier and glad and really thankful to god. because, I don’t really want to be a kindergarten teacher.
they have high hopes for me though. after 3 months I must be able to diagnose like House already. they chose me. there’s a senior and a staff engineer in my team with years of experience. I am just a junior engineer yet my bosses believe that I can do better than both of them I guess. so I must not let them especially myself down. I must take this opportunity to climb the success ladder and be on top of everything.
I have to be back on normal shift though. no more extra RM1000 pay for shifting allowance. but the knowledge gained is going to be much much more valuable kot compared to the stinkin RM1000. money can only get me so far but knowledge can take me anywhere I want to. and also, there’ll be no more spending day and night hoping to bump into K macam pembodoh.
it is so good to know that there are people who appreciate you. not all people are blind to see how much you actually worth the risk.
Thank you God for blessing us with that Huawei RMA. I have something to add on my accomplishment list this fiscal year :P
September salary, where art thou?
is almost a reality. I can’t wait to be working on shift, earn the (taxable) extra ca$h :) and start saving for a better future. On the current pay, there is no freaking way I will be able to save up. there are only millions of attractive advantages of working on shift. not only will I be able to become richer but I will also be a better quality engineer by having more time for my work on night shift without the boss and all of those people chasing me around. This way, I’ll have more time to focus on certain issue and will finally be able to identify my “signature dish” rather than settle for the so called “master in data analysis” because let’s face it, that is so lame. I wanna get technical and better oriented.
Only drawback is I will have no social life I guess and my biological clocks will be like a train wreck. My weekends will be all about sleeping and getting enough rest. (say goodbye to those little trips to kualalalalumpur) I hope that is not so bad. Just focus on the money and the happiness that the money can buy (not all happiness of course i.e. love life).
I am moving on to something better. Much better. It is almost the middle of the second quarter of fiscal year 2012 and I have yet to solve a freaking case. Not good. So let’s forget on other irrelevant shits.